My prayer for this blog, really the whole reason why I started it, was to share with the world my imperfections as a mother, wife, friend, Catholic, daughter, etc. No matter how many good ideas I’ve pinned on pinterest, no matter how many trips to the library, home-cooked meals I’ve provided, or attempts to lose the baby wight, I will never be perfect. I am a sinful woman. BUT this does not get me down, nor defeat me as a mother, wife, friend, daughter…
There’s this woman who’s been helping me. Have you ever heard of the Novena called, Mary, the Undoer of Knots? I discovered this devotion a couple of years ago when I was desperate to find heavenly help to ‘fix’ my housewife probs. It was (kinda still is) hard for me to keep the house clean, dinner on the table, kids clothed… etc. So after google-ing some possible novenas for “Prayers for Mary as a Housewife” or something like that, I found it. The novena that would soon change my life.
Let me ask you this… When you were a kid, and your shoe laces became knotted, or your necklace chain was tangled with like 37 other necklace chains… who did you take your knots to? I ALWAYS took them to my mom. She would drop everything and work on loosening my knots til they were gone, til my shoe laces were free, til all 37 necklace chains were untangled and whole.
Well ladies and gents, my soul is like a white ribbon, knotted in sin. For the life of me, I cannot untie them. These habitual sins are so hard to break! These knots (like my impatience with my 7 year old waking me from a deep-and oh so well needed-sleep at 6am asking me to do science experiments with him in the kitchen….) often suffocate my life, making me feel trapped and unhappy. I know I want to be untangled. I so want to be a peaceful, calming, supportive safe haven like Mary was to Jesus.
Because I have so many knots to go, I am super impatient and only pray the closing prayer of the novena:
Virgin Mary, Mother of fair love, Mother who never refuses to come to the aid of a child in need, Mother whose hands never cease to serve your beloved children because they are moved by the divine love and immense mercy that exists in your heart, cast your compassionate eyes upon me and see the snarl of knots that exist in my life. You know very well how desperate I am, my pain and how I am bound by these knots. Mary, Mother to whom God entrusted the undoing of the knots in the lives of his children, I entrust into your hands the ribbon of my life.
(mention your knots here)
No one, not even the evil one himself, can take it away from your precious care. In your hands there is no knot that cannot be undone. Powerful Mother, by your grace and intercessory power with Your Son and My Liberator, Jesus, take into your hands today this knot…I beg you to undo it for the glory of God, once for all, You are my hope. O my Lady, you are the only consolation God gives me, the fortification of my feeble strength, the enrichment of my destitution and with Christ the freedom from my chains.
Hear my plea. Keep me, guide me, protect me, o safe refuge!
Mary, Undoer of Knots, pray for me
Through this prayer, Mary has untangled some super tight knots in my life. Although I still struggle, my housewife-y-ness has gotten loads better! I clean AND cook pretty regularly and my husband could not be happier (he’s an acts of service kind of lover).
God knows my heart and that I have been called to be like Mary, so he has sent me 3 adorable and punkalicious boys, a delicious daughter, and a partner-in-crime (my husband, Matt) to give me plenty of opportunities to be selfless, patient, loving, caring, etc.
Sometimes, I rock at being a mom! And wife! And boy do I feel like such a badass when I am serving others with a ‘happy heart’ and not out of spite!
You see, I have found that God has called ALL of us mothers to be Mary wanabees! Our hearts, minds, bodies and souls were MADE to serve and live for others. And it is cause for celebration when we succeed AND when we fail…
…because it is in admitting we aren’t all that and a bag of chips – that’s when Jesus takes over and our lives can transform into what He intended.